so since its sunday and i'm so freakingly free...
let me spill some stuff.
the moment i saw my result on the screen of my lappie i thought it's the end of everything.
comfirm cannot masuk uni already.
p/s : i didnt fail...
i thought that i'll just have to settle with courses that i'm not even interested in.
for instance, i have thought of enrolling myself in some funny courses. =D lol!
a) biotech [maybe not that funny]
b) communication engineering [now its funny!]
c) i even thought of not studying science anymore.
i feel bad.
i know i can do much more better in A-levels.
why why why! why am i slacking so much when my parents invested so much money for me!?
hate myself for that.
after few months of grieving...
i told my mum i want to resit my papers.
after 6 months...the results came.
back to round 1....dissapointed max. same old result.
i kind of move on faster than i thought.
i get over the result so fast... of course i feel bad towards my parents.
so i called them i said sorry.
thank god i'm not home that time...
i wouldn't have the courage to even say sorry face to face.
life is not fair sometimes.
i wonder ...
why some people can be so smart and get into yale university, getting JPA scholarships, getting to go overseas under scholarships...
it's partly lucky,
a huge part of it is they're hardworking.
they know what they want from the very beginning.
why don't i come to realise earlier so i can work much more harder?
why i have to go through all the bad times with my pathetic result.
i feel nobody can ever understand my situation sometimes.
some people say,
aiyah...it's only a result.
this doesn't make me feel any better.
T_____T cried a bit. thats all.
thank god i already enrolled in uni
weeeeee!
i realise i have learnt to study smarter and i had become more ambitious.
i want higher grades and i want to be the best sometimes.
don't know maybe because A-levels result has left such huge impact on me.
anyhow,
i never once in my life regretted taking a levels. =D
had best time in my life...made such great friends and learnt so much!
without those bad results in A-levels, lol...
i think i wouldn't be who i am today...
a shoutout to all my friends taking A-levels and STPM exams!....
go and make me proud!
andrea and yoongie! u both can do it! <3>
don't be like me sayang..... =D
*peace out*
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